I love my girlfriend. This morning, after posting, I went and laid in bed with her to try and sort out what I had to say... we fought a little, argued I guess, but it had nothing to do with anything serious; I think she just wanted to go back to sleep... which is fair.
Anyway, this afternoon as I've been studying I realized that i do believe in at least one thing and that is the value of loyalty and the value of love (I think they are one in the same, hence one thing, not two... anyway). We share these values and the belief in love everlasting, the fairy tale she calls it and in this I do believe there is hope. I do believe we can achieve what I've always thought to be impossible.
Its not even so much that I believe in her, or that I believe in me, being humans as we are, its that I believe in us. I believe that we together can conquer time and ultimately evil... I say time because that motherfucker overtakes everything, but can't love live outside of timing and if so can't our love exist long after we do? I think so. I say evil because my doubts, my lack of self-effication (spelling?), is routed in our own universal fear of success. I think that in being with shannon I confront my own fears of being a quality man: in essence I am given the opportunity to prove my selfdoubt wrong...
I am the weak but I am also the strong... its as universal as everything... and yet so important to remember. Too often I think I am showing out how strong to protect my weaknesses and all too often I am pretending to be weak, afraid to make a move, when I am strong.
There is something to this in that I think that we must make them think we are weak when we are strong and strong when we are weak, but we must also act in a manner so as to capitalize in all situations...

I doubt I will have any nightmares tonight.