here's an entry to be filed under bad to worse:

my cooperating teacher (the spanish one) and I are nowhere near each other in our expectations... I don't even know what the fuck she wants. I feel like I am just punching a clock and she's expecting me to take over, but I don't know how the fuck to take over. I write lesson plans, she rejects them. No suggestion of alternatives, just rejection... and theoretically we... you know what, fuck it.
Its tough, I'm trying to keep calm, and remain quiet, but I know I'm getting fucked here... but it does me no good to raise hell, cause it ain't like shit is going to change. I don't know what to do.